Dear Chispa,
I really hope that you are feeling better now, physically and emotionally. I have been thinking for days how I could help you. I'm not good with words but I lost my eldest sister to lung cancer. So, I feel for you. The main lesson I learned from my sister's episode is BE POSITIVE, under whatever circumstances. There's reason for everything that takes place. Try to figure out what God wants you to learn from this episode.
I hope you'll find a lot of positive energy and strength from this blog
http://shinscancerblog.blogspot.com/
Believe in your inner strength.